Me, Myself, & I

Where did the year go?  It seemed like I had the busiest year imaginable, and accomplished sooo much, yet lost steam in the middle somewhere.  I still have a few boxes in my carport to go through (more like throw away), organize my office, and consolidate a storage unit. Someone asked me when/where my next art show was and I did not know.  I have sort of taken a little time off.  Too much time.

So the new year has arrived.  Now, to hit the ground running, and constantly reminding myself, that in order to eat the elephant – you need to do it one bite at a time.  Not interested in setting a bunch of goals I can’t keep.  I will be 40 this year.  That is nuts.  It won’t be for 11 more months, but still.  I remember when I turned 30 I suddenly became more self-aware, and conscious (and courteous) of others around me. I tried to be more friendly and outgoing – which is hard for me.  It was  a light-bulb that switched on.  I was so proud of myself for becoming such a grown-up.  But Now that I am embarking on my 4th decade, I know the world exists but I say screw it – I’m all about me this time!  I have joined the rat race.  It is my new years resolution to focus on myself and my career, to be selfish with my time, self-absorbed, narcissistic, egotistical.  No energy vampires allowed!  And I mean really focus on myself –  like my health and fitness.  I want to look as good as I feel.  I have had so many doors open, wonderful people have entered my life (and I kicked a few out), and things happen to me – I need to really ride those opportunities while I still can.  I just don’t have time for the crap in between.

Does that sound horrible?  I hope so.

Most people thing “Balance” as being a good thing – but I have resigned to the fact that it is not.  For me (with ADD), the quest for balance  means that nothing gets done, or it is all poorly done, that I am spread too thin.  “Jack of all trades but master of none.”  I never liked the phrase “Done, is better than perfect.”  You might as well say “Average is awesome!”  I am just going to try to focus on one thing this year in order to get perfection:  Myself.  It is the only thing I have complete control over.


Already sold three paintings this year we are ten days into.  Not too shabby.


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