Where did the year go? It seemed like I had the busiest year imaginable, and accomplished sooo much, yet lost steam in the middle somewhere. I still have a few boxes in my carport to go through (more like throw away), organize my office, and consolidate a storage unit. Someone asked me when/where my next art show was and I did not know. I have sort of taken a little time off. Too much time.
So the new year has arrived. Now, to hit the ground running, and constantly reminding myself, that in order to eat the elephant – you need to do it one bite at a time. Not interested in setting a bunch of goals I can’t keep. I will be 40 this year. That is nuts. It won’t be for 11 more months, but still. I remember when I turned 30 I suddenly became more self-aware, and conscious (and courteous) of others around me. I tried to be more friendly and outgoing – which is hard for me. It was a light-bulb that switched on. I was so proud of myself for becoming such a grown-up. But Now that I am embarking on my 4th decade, I know the world exists but I say screw it – I’m all about me this time! I have joined the rat race. It is my new years resolution to focus on myself and my career, to be selfish with my time, self-absorbed, narcissistic, egotistical. No energy vampires allowed! And I mean really focus on myself – like my health and fitness. I want to look as good as I feel. I have had so many doors open, wonderful people have entered my life (and I kicked a few out), and things happen to me – I need to really ride those opportunities while I still can. I just don’t have time for the crap in between.
Does that sound horrible? I hope so.
Most people thing “Balance” as being a good thing – but I have resigned to the fact that it is not. For me (with ADD), the quest for balance means that nothing gets done, or it is all poorly done, that I am spread too thin. “Jack of all trades but master of none.” I never liked the phrase “Done, is better than perfect.” You might as well say “Average is awesome!” I am just going to try to focus on one thing this year in order to get perfection: Myself. It is the only thing I have complete control over.
Already sold three paintings this year we are ten days into. Not too shabby.